Last Day

Something about me you should know: I have never been fired.

I have always had the ability to slide out the door right before things either really get bad or before I do. I have always been able to exit gracefully from a scene if not truly welcome or appreciated. Today I managed to do it once again but only just barely.

I held on to my last job as long as I possibly could because it was so easy. Everyday it would be the same thing being served to the same customer and there was little room for creativity. That part I was able to funnel into my writing and other portions of my life and I was thankful for that, but it slowly turned me bitter knowing that I was not allowed to use that side of my brain for the majority of the day. I knew if I was only allowed the opportunity I could make some real amazing things happen. But no one really cares when you are just one lonely cog in the machine. Shut up and keep your head down was a phrase I would have to remind myself of daily and it broke me.

As mentioned before, I held on a little to long. It was a paycheck (and not a very good one), steady and fair for the kind of work I was performing. I had a good boss who made sure my hours were regular, but I was unhappy, unfulfilled in a job I knew was not meant to last. I found myself in a new place, starting a new life away from everything and everyone familiar only to wind up doing something I didn't want to do. Why would I move out to California to do a job I could very well have done back home? Sure I have bills, but I have principles too. And so, after considering everything, I turned in my notice.

Side note: turning in a notice is terribly confusing for a business whose turnover is usually due to walk-outs.

I have no job to jump right into (yet). I have no savings (maybe a month or two worth). I have a few prospects for the future but nothing secured. And I feel great. I will feel better of course doing something I love for money, but I am no longer doing anything just for the money like before. I feel confident great things are in store that I will never regret making myself available for. So this is what if feels like to follow your dreams...